bord..

my blog sux.. haha for a multimedia student who can create his one website.. this blog sux. :) just wanted to say that.. ++ i barely update anymore.. so yaeh.. haha

bord..

Emo blog..

ok i think i can only write if i am emo.. haha.. if i am not emo i wont write..
neways people dont visit my blog anyways because i dont update that much.. well i am updating it now.. i have no idea why i am so emo these few days.. maybe i dont have that ''someone'' to talk to. i am dragging my self away from people now days. i dont know why.. i have a reason.. for every action there is a reason .. i just dont know what is the reason yet. haihz. only crazy people dont have reason to be emo or mad or sad or what ever emotion they are having right now. like me.. i am just bullshit. sad for no fucking reason? haha.. BODOH! =.='' <--(to me)

i wanna be happy. its just that when i see people have a gf i want to have it to, n i have no idea why i am more attracted to other people's gf.. that is one of the reason i keep my self away from people that is doubled. the single onces. hmm i dont knw laa. haha. stupid kan? sedih la hidup mcm ni.. nak jadik player but nak gf yg baik? hmmm.. mcm maner 2? just with i could just play with a girl like she's a toy then trow her aways like shes garbage and not feeling any guilt in side of me. <--( that is the down side of me!) i feel guilty to fast. say sry to much . need to fucking change man.! but i dont wanna be like that person.. i have a friend that is like that.. i SERIOUSLY dont wanna be like that. see all the girls he hurt. adoii! kenape la life so complicated ni!

haihz..

ok there's this girl that like me. i think. but she's kinda going to fast on things and i like it slow and stedy at the 1st stage. but she remeinds me alot like my x gf. and she has a sister that has the same nick name as my ex. =.='' trying to forget her but she keeps on coming to me. how eh? xkan nak ckp owhh u remind me alot like my ex. so i dont wanna see you anymore. she's a nice girl. dont wanna hurt her because of a stupid reason. and i dont feel the love when i am around her., no butterflys and all. usually when i like this somoeone i would feel the things i said just now. then i know i really like that person. love and like is 2 different things.. for now i dont even like her as in like like .. how eh?

car was broke in yesterday

yesterday, my sisters car kene broke in.. i went to my visit my granma at sjmc hospital. then i saw atique,ira ,bro and nico. so i just decided to talk to them laa. from 9pm to about 12.. i park at the back of sjmc because when i came there was no parking near sjmc or inside sjmc.. there's nothing in the car tho but i just feel sad.
talk to a person yesterday. she made me feel alil better. but then now i dont know.. maybe i just feel sad for no reason or maybe i just want some attention .. i aite an attention seeker. but sometimes at times like this i just want someone to just hang and all. haha.. i dont really tell people.. i aspect them to understand.. so if they dont layan me pun i dont blaim them. i just blaim my self.. i'v been feeling like this for olmost all my life.. so yeah.. this feeling will go away soon enuff i guess. but for now it sux.. with this feeling, i'v become some kinda antisocial guy. dont really talk to people and all. so if people that reads my blog if i dont layan you for just maybe a few week please understand.. i dont have a good past. might dont have a good future as well.

you know what??fuck the world. hahah.. so what if i dont have a good future.. ill work for it.! my lecturer is like a fung sui guy thinggy.. i dont really belive in that things but he say for now u might have a bad life and all. he knows, but in the future ull have a good life. made me feel abit better i guess. its like a a determination for me to work harder for my future and all.

this sem i might screw up a litle abit. i wont fail any subject.. but i just might not get good result.. that's it. next sem.. my target is to get 3.5 CGPA or above. i want to study overseas. i wanna live the life i always wanted.. so yeah..! hope i will get it. :) that's it i guess. :) haha..

ill update more soon enuff. :) will be going to pd tonight. :) ganna enjoy my ass off before i get back to the real world! hope ill feel alot better once i get back.. i need a vacation. haha.. everybody does!! so yeah.. that's it. :) peace yall!

This video is sick werh!

there's this Korean video clip. made me feel kinda sad and almost cried. and i watch this stupid video over and over and over again.. it still get me sad. stupid Korean. always with they emotional movie dramas and video clip.. haihz.. but i still love to watch it. what to do.. hahha

i just feel that i have to share with u guys this video.. haha.. well to the people that haven seen it yet la. :)

haihz.

dam la werh.. i think i say this one to many times. hmmm.. i dont know when ever i'm feelinf happy i always make people sad.. its a fucking curse i tell u.. dont really belive in it . but its happening to me alright!! now days feelinf fucking lazy to make friends anymore.. this fealing might just be for today je laa. but still.. it hurts my balls werh.. make me so fucking emo and moody when it hapends. the thing is i dont know what i did wrong.. if i knew then its a different thing jugak. ni i dont know what i did at all!? suddently the person i'm talking to is so quite!! what i did la werhhh!!. haihz.. if the person that read this is you or terasa i'm sry.. i'm truly am.