Emo blog..

ok i think i can only write if i am emo.. haha.. if i am not emo i wont write..
neways people dont visit my blog anyways because i dont update that much.. well i am updating it now.. i have no idea why i am so emo these few days.. maybe i dont have that ''someone'' to talk to. i am dragging my self away from people now days. i dont know why.. i have a reason.. for every action there is a reason .. i just dont know what is the reason yet. haihz. only crazy people dont have reason to be emo or mad or sad or what ever emotion they are having right now. like me.. i am just bullshit. sad for no fucking reason? haha.. BODOH! =.='' <--(to me)

i wanna be happy. its just that when i see people have a gf i want to have it to, n i have no idea why i am more attracted to other people's gf.. that is one of the reason i keep my self away from people that is doubled. the single onces. hmm i dont knw laa. haha. stupid kan? sedih la hidup mcm ni.. nak jadik player but nak gf yg baik? hmmm.. mcm maner 2? just with i could just play with a girl like she's a toy then trow her aways like shes garbage and not feeling any guilt in side of me. <--( that is the down side of me!) i feel guilty to fast. say sry to much . need to fucking change man.! but i dont wanna be like that person.. i have a friend that is like that.. i SERIOUSLY dont wanna be like that. see all the girls he hurt. adoii! kenape la life so complicated ni!