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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!

New years for me? and about me.

As i expected i'm having my new years alone. lol.. well i'm kinda at starbux at the moment , its 11.42pm by my lap top watch. kinda bord here alone but its way better then home. just thinking about staying home alone made me emotional. haha. neways i'm at ss15 starbux. ordered a coffie and planing to stay here till new years . all around me are friends and couples .. i kinda felt regret that i didnt make any close friends that were close to me. the one that i can truss anyway. when i think back. i was like a loner when i was in high school i did olmost everything alone . and i stayed at home most of the time like a good boy. but i did some bad stuff la. like skip school and all. ahha.. that's not the point right now. i think i have quite alot of friends then. but what hapend now? what's going on with my life? i think i screw it a long time ago when i thought i was a fat kid that annoyed peopel alot .. i think i have a problem with my self that. *cepat terasa. i cant help thinking what other people think about me. its like when ever people look at me in a different way ill be like *ok he dont like me. maybe i should back off. then i dont talk to them anymore. but i change now. alot.! but the past is still the past. and it kinda brought back to the present .. right now. i use to keep every single little itsy bitsy thing to my self even though that thing would hurt me if i dont let it out.but i did learn to get it off my chest ..

most people dont know me for me. they know me by old dani. when i was in high school . and belive it or not most people judge me the 1st time they see me. i know. i heard people talking about me. as in heard with my own ears. they will be like this dani ar i think he is a player la. he always around girls and he can talk to girls easy la. girls olso talk to her easy. got hug hug here and there ..some times got kiss kiss. (friendly kiss saying hi) ;) .. when they dont even know me? i got met this girl that i went out with. her name will not be shown or tell to other. ok, we went out like a few time i think she likes me for me. after less then a month i thought i could get her to be my girl . but then she says ; dani, i rather be friends with you. ur a friendly guy and all. but i sometimes see you flirting with other girl and hug and talk to them most of the time. girls msg you sometimes. (its now 11.54 olmost new year) its hard for me to be with you when ur always around girls .. ill get jealous easily u care about everyone you know? what about me? can u give that attention to me.? then some other stuff and all . that's the last time we talk. we kinda been avoiding each other . this year has been quite suffering for me to some people who really know me know what i'm talking about. i think in this world less then 3. :) i though i would have great friends when i enter college. but its been worse and worse. (its 12.00 am now.) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!) ader la some ups. i have great friends there that i care about and all. but they dont beat friends that u know since high school and primary school ya know? (there a fireworks view here at starbux) hahh! ok la i think i wrote to much la. haha.. :) i think ill stop and and continue later. :) i hope i dont sound nagging or anything *but i think i do. if you dont wanna read it i dont mind. :) just dont judge it? hahh!

Girls? and life?

okok girls are always insecure with their own body. some say to fat, some say to thin, some say they boobies to small, and some says that they pussy is saggy(okok i made that up) soooooo. y do you gals have to worry so much about it? those stuff doesnt make a girl? the heart does. if ur a nice girl with a personality, guy will go for you and it would last long, as in long relationship. if ur sexy, nice ass, big boobs , pretty face but personality like *may i say , SHIT then yeah. ALOT OF GUY will gi for you. but would it last long? or would they just say hey! then touch , play and go. THINK girl/woman are arcade ar?

guys these days are like that to be honest. cant truss anyone , not even ur closes fren that u have know so long that u truss with everything u have.. i think i learn that lesson the hard way. wont tell you the story because it might offend some people but i just wanna say that situation kinda change my life and how i look at people. its harder to know the truth of what people really think of you . when you know it i bet you cant take it!okok that is going out of topic. ahha..

well girls are the same as well. they are more bitchier by the year. cant really find anyone nice anymore that is still single. i know this because i'v been true alot of situation. its hard! every time i fall for that person shits hapends. its hurting and i get fed-up of liking anyone else. this year is kinda my worse year la. . hahah. or maybe i'm just *cerewet?
hahha. to pikky. haha.. i know i am not but i think i am? how to solve that eh? ahhaha. anyone?

Love

I use to ask people what is love? no body really answer me. except one gal. she is the only one who answer my question on msn. hahha.. waited for a long time hahah!!

here's her post of it.

just got back,,

omg.!! went to play bball from 3.40 to 7.50.! omg dah tired.. haha
atleast i'm abit better.. i think,. hahhaha!

The Moments

still miss u guys. i dont know when is the next time we can meet. please tell me when if ur holidays. hahha. top pics khaleeda dont wanna take her pic. =.= shy girl. =.= and they dare call me white ass boy. @.@ racist =.= !!!!!!!



i hope this pics dont imbarest u guys to much!! hahahha..!
if it does pun to bad. hahha!










i was the camera man. haha. so most of my pics is not inside la.. and khaleeda. our pics mcm siket giler inside.. so yeah.. hahhaa.! but i enjoyed taking photos. hahah.!

the day fauzis family went back.

okok the night before we played dota Lan game in my room. haha. yes i got a pc and a lap top in my room and can be LanEd. hehehhe.. so we played vs AI lol.. okok la.. so long no vs ai. ai dota the new version is way better then most of the players i played with laa. hahha.. okok out of topic. so we wanted to sleep early la that day. sudah plan nak sleep early. watch two movie then sleep.. fauzi and his gf was doing some ''talking'' ;) in msn that was talking so loooonggggggg!! so x jadik watch the 2nd movie.. owh yeah.. the 1st movie we watch was death race. hahha. the 1st time watching was the best jugak laa. hahha. after watching the 2nd movie we chat chat sekejap the internet went down.. sobz.. sad case laa. but local internet is still online. only internet cant go in.. only geeks understand i think.. hahha. so we played dota. the game lasted for 2 hours.. who knows ai was so good .. so we ended sleeping at olmost 4 i think.. fauzi was watching something and doing something. hehhe.. cant say laa. nanti kene mara. we would come all the way from singapore to malaysia and wack me.. hahha. so faham2 jer la.. kekkee..

the next day. i set my alarm at 10.am.. my father woke me up at 9.59 .. adehh sux laa. if only i got that minute it would be a nice day dah!! hahah we had breakfast that was toast with cheese .. yeah.. sedap.. yumm! then lunch i forgot wat we ate.. lol. today was a free and easy dah.. but we dont have the car so cant move around.. hahha. xpe xpe.. we got to sleep again!! yay!! sleeping is my new hobby i think. but cant laa. i am getting fat siaaaaaaaaaaa!! need to work out balik.. hahha.
at about 4.30 we went to syed ss19 and ate early dinner.. then went to sunway piramid to sent fauzi and family.. abit emotional. but still can handle my self... haihhh. my hse is so empty now.. sobz... nvr thought i could miss you guys that much laaa. i dono y pun.. maybe because we bonded well. and the past yearsss we dont really know each other that well. hope could see u guys soon la.. i dont know how soon. but soon. just need to tell me when is ur holidays and ill check my timetable when is my next holidays!! hahha..

MISSSSSSSSS UUUUUUUUUU GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BACCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

shopping with fauzi. -,-

okok hahha. yesterday that was wednesday 25dec. went shopping with fauzii at ou(one utama) it was fun.. i got only 1 t-shirt. sobzz.. the jaket i wanted was brown but they dont have my size that was M.. fauzi in the other hand got that jaket in black. i thought the prize was rm49.90 so i provoke fauzi to buy it. haha. when we saw the prize lag it was 99.90. he terus xnak beli... i was like alamakk.. just now say 49.90 now 99.90.. tengok2 it was becide it daaaaaa.. adehhh. so i decided to change the tag. haha. so fauzi got a casual wear jaket for half prize and a free undies. !! dam i only got a T-shirt that cost about rm15. hahhaa. then we walk walk around only.. nothing much that can do la.. hahha. i like to follow people shopping *girls laaa. hahhaha i dont really like to buy them. kekeke. but its ok. i got 1 nice t-shirt aite?

Singapore family came.!!

hey.. dani here. haha duh!! this my blog. haven really been updated because i thought that i wouldn't even bother to make a blog. hhaha. just tot its a one time thing. hahha! but i dono. i just feel like writing. i had fun with ALL my cuzz! the 1st day they came. i thought that maybe it will be a lil awkward because we dont really meet up. only a few years once. just really got to know them last raya. =.= *am i crapping yet? i think not. okok cont! so the came at 10pm sharp! i was so blur. we were suppose to pick them up at the bus stop but we went a lil to far.! hahha. !! END UP WE WERE AT INFRONT OF GLORIA JEANS @!! HAHHA!! that was totally my bat la. hahha! we hang put at night . i still feel a lil awkward at 1st because i have no topic to talk about. but as most people know me i'm the type of guy that crap aloTT!!hahah! so i did. haha then we started to talk like normal people. cuz talk. girl talk what ever la. hhaha i do that alot kan? hahha so they reach our hse. my mom cook a very nice meal for them. i did help i think. hahah but i am a lazy boy. we slept at about 3-4 i think most of the night.! the next morning we woke up at 6 am. my cuz mom *fauzi mom was knocking at the door like crazy.. i tot i wanted to just keep quite and maybe she might go away or something. like i always did to my mom! hahha. *its bad i know. but i just wanted to sleep. :) hahha.. but she kept knoking for bout 5 mins straight. and there was no snoozee butten!! DAM MAN!! we woke up la. have to and was force to. kesian me. :(

we might have a fun day that day if wasnt for the STUPID KTM station at subang. delayed for about 1 fucking hours. i'm like WTFFF!! c'mon help me la. they come once in a blue moon. :( if we were 10 mins early we might catch the train that arrive when we arrive. hahah.!. to bad huh. shit hapends. but i felt guilty. kinda lost a talking mojo. but the work fuck it bring me up and i tryed my best to be my self again. we plan to go to sungai wang. the most of the cloth and stuff were cheep. but my cuz *fauzi, shef, leedah.. they didnt buy anything i was like. shit maybe i brought they at the wrong place. :( i was emo and scared for awile. but i did get my shoe. heheheh.! i'm a subang boy not a kl boy. i dont really know my way around kl that much and my father expect me to know kl like a kl people when my parents dont really let me go to KL that much.! but overall i think they had fun. okok back to the story. when we reach at sungai wang, we wanted to eat at pizza hut. i remember they was a pizza hut or a shakeys or something. so we went to sungai wangg to search for a pizza place. they WERE CLOSE>!! i think they went out of bussness or something. i was like shit again. and was emo. i know its know my fault but its my nature to feel guilty. i think its part of my moms side. haha! that day we as in me and my CUZZZZZZZZZZZZ from singapore really bonded .. especially during night time. we watch movie in my room. hahha. my room its like the BOMB baby,! 2 pc games loaded. :) HAHHA> ! so the cuzzez were in my room most of the time> kekeke> ..

okok the 3rd day they were here. we went to agrotect at ulu langat. its a very nice and romantic place to hang out. :) hahha. not really that fun place unless u got my cuzzezz! keke. scratch the 1st bonding part. this is the real place we really bonded.!! we got to know the real each other. fromm fauzi to shef, leedah , siti nor , abdul and farhat. we bonded. we were all gila. hahah but as most of my friends know. no body can challenge me when i am at my girl stage right? right? hahha! i wasn't the gila la. shit. maybe i am still shy. heheh. i dont really meet them and all. so its abit hard to be gila. but its ok. i am still gila. !! :) we played at the river with waterfall and log.. hahha was a crazy day. but my dad kinda bring me down sometimes. there always a mistake. :( but again i use the fuck it moto. haha. i dont wanna spoil other peoples mood because of me. i am a very emotional guy la. sry . hahha. we had so much fun that day!! was one of my best and memorable holidays with my cuzz. we spend 1 night there. at night me and shef were emo talking under the stars .. a deep talk. was nice. romantic and all. she talk i listen i talk she listen. :) who knew we are good listener.. it was nice. we talk for about 2 hours non stop and didnt even felt bord of each other... until our but hurts. hahha. kelaka la. if it wasn't for the but case it think we would have talk for longer hours. haha. the stars there for macnafic.!! the only star sign i saw was the Scorpio . we can ver get that kinda of stars in subang or int he city. :(

THe next day we woke up swam at the river again. haha. was super cold la. dam werh.. they were splashing water at me and all. haha. i enter late becase was emo again. buhuhu for me. hahaha. but i still ended up in the water haha. after noon we went to putrajaya masjid for a boat cruzz! i tot it would be borring and all becuase the 1st time i went was boriing maybe iwent with the wrong people. hahha. and maybe last time i wasn't as hyper as now. IT WAS FUCKING NICEE!!! nice view nice wind nice weather and nice people .. the sun set was megnafic !! think back all those time i was at putrajaya kinda made me emotional. hahha. the night part was fun. we went to rainforest to eat dinner. CUN LA> there's where my sister bonded with everyone.*dina is my sis. hahha. she was super cool with them. :) i think i am the more mature one kowt. i know wat is wrong and wat is right. so i am a no fun guy la. huhuhu.. but its ok. i know my limits. kekeke.

today la yang emotional part ni. haihzzzzzzz I WISH ON THE BRIGHTEST STAR THAT THEY WOULDN'T HAVE TO GO BACK TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! sobzz.. i was abit emo again la. but i pulled my self together. and became gila. hahah! at LAST ALL MY CUZ BOUGHT SOMETHINGGGGGGGG!!!! haha, the last day pulak tuu. piramid jugak the bomb!! we shop and all just us cuz. no adults are not allowed to follow. haha just like the rainforest dinner.! kekek.. the emotional part came when we say good bye. i was crying in the inside. because it try not so show my emotion to people and public. haha. if i do that it means i am really ganna have a mental break down and i kinda did =.='' ..

these isn't good good bye.

people come and go,
people say hi and good bye,
people will nvr leave without a proper good bye,
saying good bye is a word that people dont like to use,
saying good bye is emotional in a way,
saying good bye mean nvr to see again,
good bye is not in my dictonary,
good bye is not a word for me,
good bye is always unpleasant for me.

so please trow away the good byes i said and always say that we meet again some day some how somewhere.


This is a short version of my weekend with my cuz. what ever i left out. i'm sry yah!

Ill upload the pics some other day when i have the time to choose it la.. haha. but dont worry i will. :) all the good moments. hahah!

Singapore family came.!!

When She Love Me.

When somebody loved me
everything was beautiful
every hour we spent together
lives within my heart
And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears
and when she was happy so was I
when she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
we had each other that was all
just she and I together
like it was meant to be
and when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her
and I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
but she began to drift away
I was left alone
still I waited for the day
when she'd say
I will always love you


Lonely and forgotten
never thought she'd look my way
and she smiled at me
and held me
just like she used to do
like she loved me
when she loved me

When somebody loved me
everything was beautiful
every hour we spent together
lives within my heart

When she loved me...

The Hurt Of the lonely guy's life.

A word of a lonely guy

Words of a lonely guy is seldom heard in tears or joy,
Life is like a colour that the lonely guy cant cry,
Is it hard to give this guy a chance in joy?
Or the world would rather see him cry.

This lonely guy has seen em all,
From struck of wisdom to bad of em all,
Its hard for him to react to this situation and its hard for him to be in this disputation.

What does the world have to offer him?
Friends? Love? Happiness? Or is it more heart baring action that he had seen enough of?

Its not blabbering I want to do,
But its hard for me to tell you,
That is hard enough for me here to put you guys in the lonely guy shoe.

You guys are happy!,
Have em all.!
Girls! Friends! Money and a lighting of happiness,
What does the lonely guy have?
Him? Him self? and him again?

Heart is like a flower,
To every storm and thunder ,
It drops by One by one until it dies ,
And thou would die in this world in tears
How could a man survive in tears?
Or how could a man live in tears?
How does love feel? Ask him!
He dare not to answer,
But when he did answer he meant it with all his heart.
But what does the world show him?
More and more shattered tears,
Is it his fault he is lonely as a wolf cries’,
But don’t see that in him,

All people see is a pretty face guy that is happy all the time,
When all he does is hide his tears every single freaking day of his life.!
What did he do to disserve this?
Did he kill someone?
Did he hurt someone so bad?
Or is this just karma?
What have he did to disserve this feeling of hurt and suffer?

I don’t know what to tell to the lonely man except to move on?
He did! Over and over again and over again!
He was burn down like an animal !
Is he that strong ?
Is he that strong to live this life?
One person ask him,
He said “I could if he had friends like you”.
The friend he trusted abandon him,
He has no rights to be hurt or feel bad,
Its just the rights of one person,
One life,
One heart,


The lonely man now realize that he is living in a cruel world he thought he has seen it all,
Guess he miss one of em when he trusted em.

The life of a lonely guy,
No players will know,
I bet he wish he was one,
But he dare not go to there,
He known’s better to play with hearts.
The hearts of one person its like its life,
He can try to build it up slowing when its crush!
But then its shattered its all lost.!
When does it shattered ?
Ask him? He don’t know.
Ask who? Ask ur self is it the right thing to do.

Now the lonely guy know that he did is wrong.
He just don’t realize it because his heart is in peaces was about to burse in the hell’s gate.
The friends he once knew could at least tell him it was wrong.
Not just keep to the side and wait it to be gone.
That hurts more, maybe he done nothing wrong?

All he can do now is wait and see ,
While other do their things,

Love,
What is love to the lonely guy,
He once said he dare not answer,
But he did feel it once ,
Cant sleep cant eat keep thinking about it,
When he wakes up that the first thing he think of,
Love,

But love to him hurts more then u know.
He felt love once when he started high school,
And once when he finish school,
The feeling of love is at the back him now,
When he knew that love hurts more,

When Love is lost?
When you lose it then you know it,
Keep thinking about it,
All the things he done and the partner done,
All the love that had,
All the feeling they had,
Its all going to be gone in time?

Why should we love?
Sometimes Love have to take chances,
Risk!
To feel it we have to work for it.
To feel it we have to try it.
Love is not sex and blow jobs,
Poke here poke there.
Love is what you feel,
Once you have it try not to let it go.

That was the 1st lonely guy mistake.
He let go of love as when he cant handle it,
He let go of love when things get to complicated,
He wanted more so called love then he already had.
That was the lonely guys mistake.
Love is about risking,
But if you risk to much it will hurt more then we know,

Lies in love,
When two person love each other,
They don’t lie to each other,
They tell the truth of things,
You can lie in love if it helps in the end.
Not hurt!
Lies is like a poison in the heart,
Even if you don’t say it you feel it.
Poisons will slowly effect the heart and become hurt,
Cure of poison?
Its to build up truss.
Right now the lonely guys heart has been poison,
I bet no one would bare to heal the lonely guys heart.
For what they say? He should deal with it him self!
He should ! but sometimes its hard for him to do things by him self.
He needs someone to be with him in these kind of situation.
But now who will?
All the lonely guys friends have got their own life.
No more high school , no more fun stuff, no more jokes
Life is now and life is hard.

Just hope the lonely man take it as a man and suck-it up.
As one black man told me(not raciest) *FUCK IT!
What ever it is! FUCK IT!
What ever people do to you! FUCK IT!
If there’s pussy in front of you! You better FUCK IT!
*this is his words. (hope you don’t read this) xD

So what is the lonely guy going to do now?
FUCK IT!
Common everone say it with him!

FUCK IT!

FUCK IT!

FUCK IT!

The lonely guys is trying to move on once again,
And not close him self in a cave full of darkness.

Hope he feels better after I wrote this as a his behalf.



*ps- don’t ask who.


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